Was it There Inside, All This Time?

I never knew this was even IN me. I never felt this way about art, and children before. Even though I always had the kids at my house for play, even when I was not the most present parent.

But now, now it’s different. Now, I am different. (Completely different from my unaware days). On top of that, since having my second, I made a decision, I felt was HUGE. It was HUGE to me, & it was a role I decided to take on & first thing I committed to besides motherhood (& a couple other things I’ll mention in another post) . It still is one of the only things I committed to whole heartedly & stuck to really …. after I had my second daughter. 

Short story:  Her father left when she was just about 2 years old. (There is a ‘happy ending’ but this is not at all what this post is about)… Her father is an incredible artist, I mean incredibly talented. I allowed him to ink my body in two different places, permentenly. He’d have to be a more than fantastic artist for me to allow that! I don’t even think he knows his fullest potential. Anyway.

After his untimely departure, I felt I was faced with a huge challenge. I pondered then, with all of my being: “HOW?! HOW? How could I make this child feel at peace with growing up without her father, BUT, still have sooo many pieces of him glaringly ALIVE IN HER… HOW??”

“What COULD I do to keep her LOVING even the parts of herself she might grow to be angry about?” I got it… ART! Art was thee one thing her fathers personality was pretty much built around. HE could do anything. Walk on his hands, mimic a song with playing the cords, on any guitar, after first listen of a song; and he could sing and draw anything. And do all those things very well!

WHAT could she be naturally good at & grow to love, in her father, instead of hate, even if from a distance:  ART. The art part of her (and him, cuz she’s all part him...) could grow to be alive, thriving, flourishing, and growing inside her. See, for those that haven’t grown without one parent (especially female missing father) you must understand that we know we are still at least ‘50% our missing parent’. We blame ourselves, we don’t like parts of ourselves, usually until a certain age, because of their departure. No matter the circumstance. But, to get into this topic deeper, well that is for another post entirely…for now

So, that was my quest, & that was my answer; my decision: art it would be… Art would be the main focal point of EVERYTHING I Did surrounding this child’s growth & childhood & education. 

Problem was I knew nothing about art, accept that everything inside me loved to paint & draw. Once upon a time even (before my children were born) I was a very very talented sketcher, in my own eyes… but this had to be different. So I sought out all forms of children’s art activities and that’s where our new art journey had begun. (I will share in many a future post who taught me most).

Now the tree. And why the tree in the post picture… this tree represents so much more to me …. this tree, this tree yesterday (last week by the time I finish editing this post 😏) , was painted lovingly, openly, with kids, with kind spirits, wrapped in paint dipped threads, decorated with dandelions in abundance, by the kids that we have collected through our outdoor art-ventures, in a neighbourhood I had no hope, no hope for. NO HOPE we’d find our way, no hope we would find our own friends, our ownspace“–but most importantly our own “art-space“. Then it hit me, the tree struck me! This tree in its color, creative exterior & it’s artful  nature inspired presence, represents a root we have now planted here. 

Everything in me now loves Exploring art with kids. But where did it come from? Why? I LOVE exploring art with my own children! I LOVED exploring art with my youngest especially. As she grew though, she tired of the art activities … no matter how I masked them. No matter how I mashed up & mixed in baking, cooking, science, and math. I would set up long-winded or short, art-based activities outside on our OLD apartment front yard, side driveway, or back yard parking lot. 

I believe this is when the shift began, now in hindsight… 

See, all our neighbours backyards were aligned in a row, & ran parallel to our back parking lot. The other neighbourhood kids would peek over & try to see what we were up too. Or they’d shout over to us. During our activities, we would often screech in excitement (or argument). In drawing attention to ourselves we would end up with at least us plus 2 kids over, involved in whatever we were into at the time. Often, my daughter would be complianing, uninterested, & I would be alone in the activity while she just drew (always had a paper and pencil in hand, or would request one from me.) The point is, she, my own child, was becoming un-interested. Uninvolved. At times I was disappointed. At times I would carry on with the ‘art-ivity’, alone, hoping she would rejoin me eventually….

But, What happened was different than ever planned or thought of at all… this is the part I believe something in me kicked in, was growing, just turned on, or was just let out. Set free is exactly what I realize it feels like! I have not written about this before, so I’m rather excited to be sharing– I have not reflected on whatever this is and never asking myself before now:  

“Was This There Inside Me, This Whole Time?” Was it dragged out of me by my second daughter? Was she the one that birthed this part of me? Was she in fact the Creator & I the Curator of whatever this new found excitement was? Was I supposed to be a creative kids art teacher or guider? 

Back to the backyards, we ended up with kids from the street over at anytime we were outside & involved in our own art process. The others always wanting ‘in’ on our activities. I couldn’t ever say no!?! With their FEVOR, the Excitement in their eyes, & their absolute curiosity–how could I not be hooked on allowing them in?!?! 

That’s the moment it happened. But I did not realize it until almost 3 years later, that I might want to do this. Like forever. As a profession. And I changed again. Something changed in me again, or was re-birthed. Recently, I have decided, I must get back to school to study art. Everything and anything I can at whatever school I can. I cannot right now, get physically to our local college campus to start the Art & Design focused schooling I want to. Instead, I have picked up on every online course I can! I will gain all the knowledge I can about how to run my own art studio, for kids. For now I will share our newly created kids art group activities, with the kids in our new neighbourhood and with you all here. 

HUH…? Who knew? I certainly didn’t have a clue this was inside but, damn am I excited to feel like I know where I am going. Now, to manifest my dreams of teaching art, or art therapy to kids… 

If you would have asked me ever in my life before the last 5 if I swanted to teach art or have an art studio for children; I would have said NEVER!

HERE IS what I am up to right now:  

1-  I am an active member of Creativebug.com.  Creativebug is an online creative art teaching community, with about 1,000 classes available. These classes are taught by artists themselves, like Lisa Congdon:  art illustrator, fine artist, & collector extrordinare. 

My second teacher via Creativebug turned out to be a great creatively spiritual teacher, Flora Bowley

2-  Flora Bowleys Intuitive Painting Class on Creativebug opened my heart up to a new huge love I had all but forgotten, painting! Thankfully, I now have the opportunity to part take on her (book titled–!) online course called “Creative Revolution” (PSSSTget a Signed Copy of her book here!!) Flora’s 7-week ecourse is an incredibly exciting exploration of self, through art. I don’t know how to explain it. You must read or adventure it for yourself to really say what it is to you. 

I will keep you updated during this course, week by week. If you’re looking for more than once in a while updates, please visit me on Instagram! 

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Share your creative experience below. A special online course you found? Looking for a new daily art challenge? Try Tammy G’s Index-card-a-day art challenge #ICAD2017 . I find it a perfect in between my other projects, that keeps me from getting stuck. Are you a Creative that is feeling exhausted and over spent, physically overwhelmed? Visit the website of Creative life coach (who is another amazing female, I’m telling you!!) Amy Kuretsky and find out How she Fuels Her Hustle here! Into creative listening?  Podcasting for Creatives? Here’s a Great one! Via Danielle of the Jealous Curator. OH, And, Here’s  Youngman, he’s Your Creative Push

BE THE INSPIRATION,

Yours Truly, J9;) 

All Grow’d Up

Not sure who is feeling greater the Separation Anxiety here, myself or my 5 year old? Almost joining the 40’s clubs and yet here I am feeling strangely ‘under the weather’ since Wednesday morning, exactly. How does this relate to any form of separation anxiety? I think the YUCK I feel is just that; my own anxiety! The youngest is moving up in the world and has started her first week of half-day Junior Kindergarten. (I’m estimating, thats probably around the Pre-K mark for my good ole’ American readers).


While the last three years or so my life has been completely thrown upside down, my energy, organization skills, efficiency in everything I used to do, has been absolutely exhausted and my soul strength utterly depleted (that is no estimation!). I simply still cannot help but believe that I, as the SSAHM (SINGLE Stay At Home Mom of 2) that has conquered bankruptcy twice (both times, financial, emotional, & spiritual) overcome homelessness and food-less-ness more times than I care to admit (which we may or may not still struggle with at times)….. this woman of all silver-linings and positive attitudes, find myself having real life separation anxiety from sending my LittleF to Pre-K like this. !?!?! Really? 


I find it difficult to believe I am having separation anxiety. But, I guess I totally am. Looks like she’s all grow’d up and so I guess now, it’s my turn… What confuses me is that when I looked ahead from her younger years, I did not think I would feel such a strong sense of having to let go this quickly. I thought I had til at least teen-age lol. It has happened sooner than I had planned that’s for sure. 

I have come to terms with my own parental-separation anxiety, is a normal part of the process. The entirety of the rest of our lives watching our children grow now, is now about letting go really. 


We shall see what comes to the table next to get through. Hopefully, I will be able to start posting here again to keep track. Because I Promise, it is always something! 😉

Hope you will visit again soon! 💗

Your friend,

Jaynine


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Made By Joel

Today, I am excited to share our personal experience with one of our new favorite websites! (Especially helpful when we were locked up indoors during the dramatic city wide Ice Storm Ontario 2013)

Made by Joel

Joel is a world renowned designer of all things children. Fabric, wood, clothing, DIY, decor, toy making, hand-drawn and beyond. (Links on where to purchase his creativity book for here).  

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On his website you will find a dropdown menu for Free Printable Activities. Here is where we found the many of our Printable Toys and activities that kept our hands warm and head in the game over the last few  weeks  months. This deep freeze has been quite impossible to handle. It has just resurfaced its ugly head this past week, again. More temperatures around the -24 mark, with outlandish windchill values of -44 and colder.

20140124-133816.jpg Navigating around Joel’s on line playground is not only user friendly but, it’s fun! As we printed the fold, cut, & colourable paper town pieces throughout the site, I discovered using cardstock paper can make standing each piece up individually easy. I had more fun than the young I’m sure. I also had to add my glittery touch to my great looking lamposts here, with gold glitter glue placed on light!

20140124-134235.jpg How cute does our little Christmas Town look all together, and shining when turning on the Christmas lights we set them out under. We added mixtures of our seriously frugal figure ceramic fixture finds from our local Thrift Store { I mean dirt cheap. I will share tips on Thrift Store Shopping for DIY & craft creators! }

Since our traumatic Ice Storm hit, I have been extra kid creative around the house–& at the house I babysit 2 boys as well. Poor parents there, can barely see their new fridge or out their front looking window LOL ;D 

 

 

There are so many free printables available on line for children. I have found many for adults as well. What I was searching for this time was a site we could ALL enjoy creating from. That’s when I accidentally happily found MadeByJoel.com.  I took the initiative to save each file I could in our ibooks PDF library for future use. Then, printed each of our choice Paper Cities, People, and Vehicles, on a thicker cardstock paper. Each of the paper playful items we printed stood and were stronger with this choice paper. Made for fun decorating, worked with various coloring utensils, and even added our own special touches like in the pictures below!

 

 

There is much design to enjoyed through the talented father and husband Made by Joel for those of you with children, or children at heart, for the young and old, plain or bold. There is something for everyone. I really hope you will take a look around at his art. You’re certain to be inspired if you do!

What are your favorite adult or children FREE Printables websites you chose for coloring or printable activities with the kids, or alone? Share in the comments below! 

JayNine xo

Fake Snow Recipe

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Hola! From Ballerina Barbie on the puffy white slopes of Canadian Snow .. Fake Snow that is!

We got this fool proof Indoor Homemade Sensory Snow recipe of fun, for many cold winter afternoons, via Mommas Fun World!

Ready for the RECIPE:  get your notebooks! 

– Baking Soda and 

– Conditioner! 

Amazing eh? Take a peek through at her recipe here for measurement numbers, because I altered mine by eye and it worked perfectly for us. 

By the fire

A perfect winter scene with the rooster warming by the Barbie firepit

*TIP  I would chose a white or clear conditioner. A pleasant smelling one as well, or scent-free, sensitive for those with skin allegies. LO has sensitive skin but for the amount she got outside of on her hands, it caused no disruptions to the rest of her body ;D 

Ballerina Barbie

Best shot! Ballerina Barbie, perfectly brozed, in swimsuit, classic wave, in the snow! Love this shot!

Went to the local Loblaws (large grocery chain for you not in Canada) straight to the CLEARANCE section (as I ususally do .. shhh… lol) and search you will find one. The alternative is chekc the regular shelving for SALE items. I found ours there, a name brand for $1.63! BAM! What a steal.

Firstly, we don’t have a huge table space to play with this messy stuff, so we lay down an old sheet; lay the RubberMaid Bin lid on top of the kid size table. Turn the lid upside down and voila–>a protective ledge for no spill overs. I do suggest a space that can get messy and is rather simple to clean. TIP*  I keep our floor vaccuum in livingroom on days of indoor play for quick clean ups.  

the snow queens treasure crystals

“MLP” treasure chest filled with clear tiny diamond shaped pieces -AKA- “the Snow Queens Treasure crystals” dug out, found buried in the snow ;)

I’m real sorry about the foggy image quality. iPhone 4S is my only digital camera device (for now). Plus, I think the glimmer off the foil didnt help in its inability to focus clearly!  

TIP*  I used aluminum foil to cover the play surface under the fake snow, on the bin lid, to create the illusion of more snow! Adds to the glimmer in the natural light, like real fresh fallen snow. First time we addedsome silver glitter.

This last (3rd) time we played with it (as I only have 1 youngster), we added blue food colouring because we were throwing it away. This mixture sat fine in the fridge for over three weeks. I left the folded foil atop, so LO could use her independent and get it from refrigerator herself :D

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Added the blue food coloring on the foil to create the likes of an Ice Skating Rink! Love how it worked with the ducks we chose! 

 The texture of this indoor snow is actually more like that of a fresh fallen powder snowfall. Now, you will not able to use cookie cutter shapes with but sometimes the fun is just in the mess-making ;)

However, we were able to pat it together like real snow. Then, 

TIP*  We used buttons and other oddities to creat imprints, foot prints on the packed piles. To my surprise, LO added her smallest DollarStore farm animals for fun in the snow as well. 

 

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Husky was closely watching the farm animals.

Here’s Mr.Piggy eating from his ‘trough’ LOL but, I cannot find the photo of him “rolling in the snow”!

The one thing we change up is the original recipe to lower quantities a bit. The more larger mixture seems to go bad before we get alot of use out if it!

sneak peek

 A wee sneak peek into the continued part of this mixture, we carried outdoors next …


Visit Momma’s Fun World for more great winter indoor and outdoor kids activities, this recipe, and more sensory play. Follow her social spaces on Pinterest, FacebookTwitter, and G+Plus!


TIP* Hey guys, yes we’ve been M.I.A. for a long while–too long. We hope you’ll stick around and visit again soon. I have a lot of kids activities, childrens, tecahers, homeschooler, and all age resources to share with all my parental followers. I have some laughable photos to share from our instagram and holiday family visit nights. Reviews to be released Monday, of various iTunes AppStore Photo Apps to add to my collection here; that you will LOVE to add to your own mobile devices. Grab a tea and read about me here, here, and here. There’s years and years of my resource finds through Pinterest and all of my social media connections are up for following or reach out to me through About.Me <–another social service I absolutely reccommend for those with more than 4 social media icons in their emails! 

“Ya’ll Come Back Now, Ya Hear!”

May You Each Be Blessed and Enjoy a Happy Safe Holidays,

Jaynine and Girlz

 

Wicker Woes

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Just saw this across the street at our neighbourhood ‘big bulk’ (garbage) pick up day. I couldnt help but think of the possibilities for repurpose and re-creation!

Wicker furniture was such a big part of my childhood. I just had to share this with you.

You would not believe the items people just throw out!? It baffles me.

Earlier this year we picked up four perfect shape leather diningroom chairs! The slightest tear in one seat was the only damage.

I can’t help but think someone out there is looking to cherish a vintage retro whatever wicker basinet. It separates top from bottom as well. I myself would have loved one for my last child ;D

Oh well, “one mans trash is another mans treasure”–Its soo sad I have no where to house it temporarily even. I’m sad to see it go like this.

See you tomorrow for a DIY decor update and inspiration post. Who knows, might be good for a few laughs!

Jaynine xox

UPDATE** i am so happy to report that even though it wasn’t me, someone DID pick up the crib/basinet ;D
I am happy someone saw the gold in that box!!
I looked on line for a comparison price: $330.00 !!!!! I Knew it wouldve been a worthy grab!!!