Was it There Inside, All This Time?

I never knew this was even IN me. I never felt this way about art, and children before. Even though I always had the kids at my house for play, even when I was not the most present parent.

But now, now it’s different. Now, I am different. (Completely different from my unaware days). On top of that, since having my second, I made a decision, I felt was HUGE. It was HUGE to me, & it was a role I decided to take on & first thing I committed to besides motherhood (& a couple other things I’ll mention in another post) . It still is one of the only things I committed to whole heartedly & stuck to really …. after I had my second daughter. 

Short story:  Her father left when she was just about 2 years old. (There is a ‘happy ending’ but this is not at all what this post is about)… Her father is an incredible artist, I mean incredibly talented. I allowed him to ink my body in two different places, permentenly. He’d have to be a more than fantastic artist for me to allow that! I don’t even think he knows his fullest potential. Anyway.

After his untimely departure, I felt I was faced with a huge challenge. I pondered then, with all of my being: “HOW?! HOW? How could I make this child feel at peace with growing up without her father, BUT, still have sooo many pieces of him glaringly ALIVE IN HER… HOW??”

“What COULD I do to keep her LOVING even the parts of herself she might grow to be angry about?” I got it… ART! Art was thee one thing her fathers personality was pretty much built around. HE could do anything. Walk on his hands, mimic a song with playing the cords, on any guitar, after first listen of a song; and he could sing and draw anything. And do all those things very well!

WHAT could she be naturally good at & grow to love, in her father, instead of hate, even if from a distance:  ART. The art part of her (and him, cuz she’s all part him...) could grow to be alive, thriving, flourishing, and growing inside her. See, for those that haven’t grown without one parent (especially female missing father) you must understand that we know we are still at least ‘50% our missing parent’. We blame ourselves, we don’t like parts of ourselves, usually until a certain age, because of their departure. No matter the circumstance. But, to get into this topic deeper, well that is for another post entirely…for now

So, that was my quest, & that was my answer; my decision: art it would be… Art would be the main focal point of EVERYTHING I Did surrounding this child’s growth & childhood & education. 

Problem was I knew nothing about art, accept that everything inside me loved to paint & draw. Once upon a time even (before my children were born) I was a very very talented sketcher, in my own eyes… but this had to be different. So I sought out all forms of children’s art activities and that’s where our new art journey had begun. (I will share in many a future post who taught me most).

Now the tree. And why the tree in the post picture… this tree represents so much more to me …. this tree, this tree yesterday (last week by the time I finish editing this post 😏) , was painted lovingly, openly, with kids, with kind spirits, wrapped in paint dipped threads, decorated with dandelions in abundance, by the kids that we have collected through our outdoor art-ventures, in a neighbourhood I had no hope, no hope for. NO HOPE we’d find our way, no hope we would find our own friends, our ownspace“–but most importantly our own “art-space“. Then it hit me, the tree struck me! This tree in its color, creative exterior & it’s artful  nature inspired presence, represents a root we have now planted here. 

Everything in me now loves Exploring art with kids. But where did it come from? Why? I LOVE exploring art with my own children! I LOVED exploring art with my youngest especially. As she grew though, she tired of the art activities … no matter how I masked them. No matter how I mashed up & mixed in baking, cooking, science, and math. I would set up long-winded or short, art-based activities outside on our OLD apartment front yard, side driveway, or back yard parking lot. 

I believe this is when the shift began, now in hindsight… 

See, all our neighbours backyards were aligned in a row, & ran parallel to our back parking lot. The other neighbourhood kids would peek over & try to see what we were up too. Or they’d shout over to us. During our activities, we would often screech in excitement (or argument). In drawing attention to ourselves we would end up with at least us plus 2 kids over, involved in whatever we were into at the time. Often, my daughter would be complianing, uninterested, & I would be alone in the activity while she just drew (always had a paper and pencil in hand, or would request one from me.) The point is, she, my own child, was becoming un-interested. Uninvolved. At times I was disappointed. At times I would carry on with the ‘art-ivity’, alone, hoping she would rejoin me eventually….

But, What happened was different than ever planned or thought of at all… this is the part I believe something in me kicked in, was growing, just turned on, or was just let out. Set free is exactly what I realize it feels like! I have not written about this before, so I’m rather excited to be sharing– I have not reflected on whatever this is and never asking myself before now:  

“Was This There Inside Me, This Whole Time?” Was it dragged out of me by my second daughter? Was she the one that birthed this part of me? Was she in fact the Creator & I the Curator of whatever this new found excitement was? Was I supposed to be a creative kids art teacher or guider? 

Back to the backyards, we ended up with kids from the street over at anytime we were outside & involved in our own art process. The others always wanting ‘in’ on our activities. I couldn’t ever say no!?! With their FEVOR, the Excitement in their eyes, & their absolute curiosity–how could I not be hooked on allowing them in?!?! 

That’s the moment it happened. But I did not realize it until almost 3 years later, that I might want to do this. Like forever. As a profession. And I changed again. Something changed in me again, or was re-birthed. Recently, I have decided, I must get back to school to study art. Everything and anything I can at whatever school I can. I cannot right now, get physically to our local college campus to start the Art & Design focused schooling I want to. Instead, I have picked up on every online course I can! I will gain all the knowledge I can about how to run my own art studio, for kids. For now I will share our newly created kids art group activities, with the kids in our new neighbourhood and with you all here. 

HUH…? Who knew? I certainly didn’t have a clue this was inside but, damn am I excited to feel like I know where I am going. Now, to manifest my dreams of teaching art, or art therapy to kids… 

If you would have asked me ever in my life before the last 5 if I swanted to teach art or have an art studio for children; I would have said NEVER!

HERE IS what I am up to right now:  

1-  I am an active member of Creativebug.com.  Creativebug is an online creative art teaching community, with about 1,000 classes available. These classes are taught by artists themselves, like Lisa Congdon:  art illustrator, fine artist, & collector extrordinare. 

My second teacher via Creativebug turned out to be a great creatively spiritual teacher, Flora Bowley

2-  Flora Bowleys Intuitive Painting Class on Creativebug opened my heart up to a new huge love I had all but forgotten, painting! Thankfully, I now have the opportunity to part take on her (book titled–!) online course called “Creative Revolution” (PSSSTget a Signed Copy of her book here!!) Flora’s 7-week ecourse is an incredibly exciting exploration of self, through art. I don’t know how to explain it. You must read or adventure it for yourself to really say what it is to you. 

I will keep you updated during this course, week by week. If you’re looking for more than once in a while updates, please visit me on Instagram! 

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Share your creative experience below. A special online course you found? Looking for a new daily art challenge? Try Tammy G’s Index-card-a-day art challenge #ICAD2017 . I find it a perfect in between my other projects, that keeps me from getting stuck. Are you a Creative that is feeling exhausted and over spent, physically overwhelmed? Visit the website of Creative life coach (who is another amazing female, I’m telling you!!) Amy Kuretsky and find out How she Fuels Her Hustle here! Into creative listening?  Podcasting for Creatives? Here’s a Great one! Via Danielle of the Jealous Curator. OH, And, Here’s  Youngman, he’s Your Creative Push

BE THE INSPIRATION,

Yours Truly, J9;) 

All Grow’d Up

Not sure who is feeling greater the Separation Anxiety here, myself or my 5 year old? Almost joining the 40’s clubs and yet here I am feeling strangely ‘under the weather’ since Wednesday morning, exactly. How does this relate to any form of separation anxiety? I think the YUCK I feel is just that; my own anxiety! The youngest is moving up in the world and has started her first week of half-day Junior Kindergarten. (I’m estimating, thats probably around the Pre-K mark for my good ole’ American readers).


While the last three years or so my life has been completely thrown upside down, my energy, organization skills, efficiency in everything I used to do, has been absolutely exhausted and my soul strength utterly depleted (that is no estimation!). I simply still cannot help but believe that I, as the SSAHM (SINGLE Stay At Home Mom of 2) that has conquered bankruptcy twice (both times, financial, emotional, & spiritual) overcome homelessness and food-less-ness more times than I care to admit (which we may or may not still struggle with at times)….. this woman of all silver-linings and positive attitudes, find myself having real life separation anxiety from sending my LittleF to Pre-K like this. !?!?! Really? 


I find it difficult to believe I am having separation anxiety. But, I guess I totally am. Looks like she’s all grow’d up and so I guess now, it’s my turn… What confuses me is that when I looked ahead from her younger years, I did not think I would feel such a strong sense of having to let go this quickly. I thought I had til at least teen-age lol. It has happened sooner than I had planned that’s for sure. 

I have come to terms with my own parental-separation anxiety, is a normal part of the process. The entirety of the rest of our lives watching our children grow now, is now about letting go really. 


We shall see what comes to the table next to get through. Hopefully, I will be able to start posting here again to keep track. Because I Promise, it is always something! 😉

Hope you will visit again soon! 💗

Your friend,

Jaynine


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UPDATED:  @HeyDay Photo App Review

*URGENT UPDATE*:

For all users of the heyday app... The creators ditched this creation. The owner was just featured in a fortune.com article. He’s just picked up, left behind, leaving NO NOTICE NO RESPONSE on ANY Social Media Accounts, regarding this fact. He’s picked up a new giant idea, and just walked away… All servers containing our FAMILY PHOTOGRAPHYS, NOTEs with THOUSANDS of Memories we took time to Write Save and share so that we could have them FOREVER, to NEVER be FORGOTTEN…. All Gone.

Just gone.

No answers. Tweeted, Instagramed, face booked, and commented everywhere I could:  NO RESPONSE. I even messaged Heyday’s every person tagged in his Instagram account pictures. Website: GONE. We need to get togethe to address this and I have started the process through Apple Support via their Twitter account. 
So I DO NOT RECCOMMEND THIS APP! I DO NOT RECOMMEND ANY APP MADE BY THE CREATORS OF THIS APP!

ALSO, in closing, I am trying to reach out to as many Heyday App Users as possible, and gathering names and then continuing to keep trying to reach the x owners for CLARITY ANSWERS AND ASSURITY as to WHAT happens now? Where are our photos? How do I know you won’t use my photos in any dishonest manners? WHO does have access to our photos and memorable moment so? 

WHY? 

WHY?

WHY ? WHY, were we NOT given the opportunity to write down, re-download, get back, ALL OF OUR MOMENTS AND PHOTOS FIRST, before you (extremely dishonestly) just disappeared? NO NOTICE on your website, NO Posts on your instagram? Your facebook? NOT EVEN A GENERAL EMAIL sent to your ongoing Customers?!?! HOW could you do that? WHAT will we do now? 

Where are our Notes? Why would we Not be given some kind of notice?…. 

Many other apps have done and DO, out of RESPECT for THEIR customers they’ve stored their PHOTO Memories of, for YEARS.   ESPECIALLY when the service that’s provided, INVOLVES FAMILIES photos, and life memories, moments that will never be brought back again, not ever, of real lives, of their unique experiences!…. AND, I am both disgusted, and I am committed to finding ANSWERS

Please leave a comment or go through my Contact Page to leave your name, email address, and maybe your Twitter and Instagram names so that I can message and tag you further, when and, If I figure out what happens next, with our photos and notes contained within the @Heyday app –that is just no longer useable now. Just fell off the planet I guess. Please be patient as I do receive a lot of emails via my blog.

THANK YOU SINCERELY, Jeanine 

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*URGENT:  DO NOT DOWNLOAD this app entitled “Heyday – Journaling. Reimagined.” created by “Hey, Inc.”

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A quick photo app review for you before the holidays really begin! 

For those of you that have been following me for sometime, especially HERE on My Instagram, you know I LOVE a great photo effect and photo storage (Apple iTunes) App!

This specific one I wanted to share right away (without editing or thought) because, it will be thee perfect addition to your iPhone camera for Christmas time!

If you’re travelling around to families houses, from one town to another, you will find this app absolutely perfect for your hectic schedule. I am a pro at that, trust me here…

PHOTO 1

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From indoors to outdoors, here’s our latest “Saturday Afternoon”…

I have yet to find an app I appreciate more. Now that being said, I do love my other photo effect apps for playing with colour, edits, and effects but, this app is different.

First, its called
“Heyday – Journaling. Reimagined.” created by “Hey, Inc.”

In my personal experience, this app is better than iPhoto, Instagram(<–follow me there;); or any photo storage type app I have purchased through Apple, iTunes AppStore.

An intuitive, organzied, systematic photo storage app. All you do, is take the photo, leave the rest, up to the app…

In the HeyDay the app:
Stores all photos taken by date, time, sequence. Also, labels each with its time frame ie-“Sunday Afternoon” to separate, “Sunday Evening”.

Arranges, and or re-arranges each photo collage or section the app itself creates for you.

Best Features:

A-  Easy date storage for remembering when photo was taken precisely.

B-  With the added option for you to socially share each of these sectioned and timed collages. (Through Facebook and beyond). 

C-  While enjoying a look at the gorgeous layouts the Heyday app creates for you, go into each photo, change its position, drag and remove one you dont like, or “add/swap” the images you prefer!

D-  Ok, I do not personally use this feature mainly because we don’t travel very far as we used to, without a vehicle of our own, the Location Services! Turn these on and always be able to share with the children exactly who’s house you were celebrating at for turkey. Skip the kids arguments and turn ON your location services within the app itself. 

On top of that, one great shot just a bit too dark, sharp, or not on the images focal point, tap it and readjust its positioning. Chose from excellent photo effect filters for the perfect result; which are already included in the download!

Brings me to the Best Part:

Affordable price, and No hidden “in-app purchases” required to buy the photo effect filters and best qualities. All around the best holiday photo app for the organized, digital, photo taking Mom.

…or wait is that disorganized rushing Mom whom has no time to re-organize photos? 

Yep! That’s Me! 

I realize that our camera rolls now provide this type of info. However I don’t remembering seeing the photos by time nor with such simple good looking aesthetics either. I’d like to remind you as well for those whom love to share some photos socially once in a while, the camera roll does not offer an already well-crafted collage of your photos in various filters effect options. 

So there! 

Go get your Heyday and Hey! Enjoy your day! 

“Happy Holidays, eh?” :D

Your Canadian Friend,

JayNine xox

Get all the photo apps you need, in ONE Great APP:
HeyDay by Hey, Inc.

 

* I am not paid for any of my posts not do I oppose, sell, or promote the use of any product I share about here. I simply am sharing with my readers my honest personal experience with my favorite things in the world * Jeanine H of j9sopinion

PHOTO 2 “Sunday Evening”

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Entitled: “Sunday Evening” by the app itself, I welcome the Organization!

PHOTO 3: SUNDAY AFTERNOON

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UPDATED

In closing, I will be very careful, research more, and probably won’t actually download any “new” photo Journalling apps–thanks to this experience with @Heyday … I do not regret easily, but this one I do. In my downloading and Apple purchase history, I have  downloaded about 1,200 apps in total:  this is the first experience of this kind. Hopefully the last. Even though I have lost money on crappy apps, I’ve let it go a lot faster. I didn’t even bother writing bad reviews! I could not even tell you their names. This one will stick with me for quite some time. It was four years plus of our lives in photos. 

Thanks  for the Life Lesson in Technology department Chen. Someday I hope you come back down from your new “Stolen” high —

(“Stolen” is Chen’s newest highly successful gaming app appropriately named after it follows his dropping off the world from his heyday app) to give back to the little people whom supported you through Heyday

Thanks,

Jaynine
 

Having A ‘Note-a-Graphic’ Afternoon

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Just a quick note to all my friends, brothers, sisters, and family out there on this sabbath Sunday…

{ I created this well designed, simple word image, via the Notegraphy App, available in the iTunes AppStore. Click through for other users photo examples onInstagram, using the #HelloNotegraphy #notegraphy hashtags. Also, follow them @HelloNotegraphy }

No matter what country, culture, background, no matter if you pray standing, sitting, or meditate lying down, no matter if you are rich are poor, you are all my ‘brothers’ and I pray for you through the power of The Lord and Our Saviour Jesus Christ, today ;) Amen.

Yours Kindly,

Jeanine

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Made By Joel

Today, I am excited to share our personal experience with one of our new favorite websites! (Especially helpful when we were locked up indoors during the dramatic city wide Ice Storm Ontario 2013)

Made by Joel

Joel is a world renowned designer of all things children. Fabric, wood, clothing, DIY, decor, toy making, hand-drawn and beyond. (Links on where to purchase his creativity book for here).  

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On his website you will find a dropdown menu for Free Printable Activities. Here is where we found the many of our Printable Toys and activities that kept our hands warm and head in the game over the last few  weeks  months. This deep freeze has been quite impossible to handle. It has just resurfaced its ugly head this past week, again. More temperatures around the -24 mark, with outlandish windchill values of -44 and colder.

20140124-133816.jpg Navigating around Joel’s on line playground is not only user friendly but, it’s fun! As we printed the fold, cut, & colourable paper town pieces throughout the site, I discovered using cardstock paper can make standing each piece up individually easy. I had more fun than the young I’m sure. I also had to add my glittery touch to my great looking lamposts here, with gold glitter glue placed on light!

20140124-134235.jpg How cute does our little Christmas Town look all together, and shining when turning on the Christmas lights we set them out under. We added mixtures of our seriously frugal figure ceramic fixture finds from our local Thrift Store { I mean dirt cheap. I will share tips on Thrift Store Shopping for DIY & craft creators! }

Since our traumatic Ice Storm hit, I have been extra kid creative around the house–& at the house I babysit 2 boys as well. Poor parents there, can barely see their new fridge or out their front looking window LOL ;D 

 

 

There are so many free printables available on line for children. I have found many for adults as well. What I was searching for this time was a site we could ALL enjoy creating from. That’s when I accidentally happily found MadeByJoel.com.  I took the initiative to save each file I could in our ibooks PDF library for future use. Then, printed each of our choice Paper Cities, People, and Vehicles, on a thicker cardstock paper. Each of the paper playful items we printed stood and were stronger with this choice paper. Made for fun decorating, worked with various coloring utensils, and even added our own special touches like in the pictures below!

 

 

There is much design to enjoyed through the talented father and husband Made by Joel for those of you with children, or children at heart, for the young and old, plain or bold. There is something for everyone. I really hope you will take a look around at his art. You’re certain to be inspired if you do!

What are your favorite adult or children FREE Printables websites you chose for coloring or printable activities with the kids, or alone? Share in the comments below! 

JayNine xo